Slowing Down


(Arizona visiting me in the hospital on Sunday)

This past weekend, I was (unexpectedly) admitted to the hospital after a 2 day bout of excruciating stomach distress.

I ignored the pain at first, and went about my business as a lot of Moms tend to do. But by Saturday morning as I was getting ready to exercise through the piercing pain (“Maybe it will feel better if I stretch it out, do some movement,” I thought) I took a few deep breaths and dared to ask myself the question, “Okay Susanna, what is it that you REALLY need right now?”

And the answer was clear — I needed to understand what was going on with this constant, throbbing pain in my side and more importantly, I needed to stop what I was doing and really take care of myself.

I’m glad I did, because after a quick trip to urgent care, I was immediately sent to the hospital for a CT scan and further tests to rule out the number one concern : appendicitis. Turns out, all of the tests I did were inconclusive, but it was clear I needed to be admitted to the hospital for further observation.

Fast forward and it’s now Tuesday evening. I’ve been discharged from the hospital without needing an appendectomy but have 7 days worth of horse pill antibiotics to look forward to. I hope they will calm my unhappy appendix.

But : it’s hard to not feel normal; these meds are kicking my booty, I have a nasty metallic taste in my mouth all the time, I feel sluggish and bloated, I can’t exercise, I can’t laugh (it hurts too much to), I have bruises and swollen marks all over my body from shots, needles and IVs and my energy is completely zapped.

I don’t like slowing down. I like getting things done and feeling productive. But as much as it is within my nature to go, go, go ALL THE TIME, I also know when it’s time to calm down and let my batteries recharge.

Not the way I envisioned my week, but here I am taking it easy. Hopefully, I’ll be able to enjoy this down time.

5 Comments on “Slowing Down”

  1. So glad that you are much better now and were able to take some time off for just yourself. If we don’t take care of ourselves, we can’t take care of anyone else. xo


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